Shut up, Chris!
I realized something last night (since I wasn't sleeping, anyway). I talk too much, and I don't listen. Rob said it so many times and I still wasn't listening. He wanted to talk, and I wouldn't shut up and listen to him. I'm not saying it's all my fault, but I am responsible for ruining what could have been at least a beautiful friendship with him and the others at the store. Because I didn't listen. I got too involved with trying to get myself across to others that I didn't hear them out. I was selfish, and because of that I missed chances that I probably won't ever get again, and my willingness to listen now doesn't matter. It's too late. Rob has every right to give up on me, and I have no right to claim to love him.
I want to stop talking. I want to listen more. I don't want to lose anyone else. Please remind me to shut up.
I want to stop talking. I want to listen more. I don't want to lose anyone else. Please remind me to shut up.
posted by Chris at 1:36 AM
4 Comments:
Hey talking is good! It saves the introverted people from having to start or carry on a conversation and leaves them free to interject whenever they have something to say. =D Some introverted person told me this...*laugh* But ya...talking is good...but listening is just as important. I'm guilty of not listening all the time. Ask Jason...he'll tell ya. =-_-= I drive him crazy 'cause I never listen to him. =P And like he always tells me about self analysis...it doesn't mean crap unless you actually LISTEN to yourself (but you also have to be objective, which is difficult to do when analyzing yourself). Therapists are good for providing a more objective analysis. But that also doesn't mean crap unless you actually listen to what they say (even if you don't like hearing it). However, if your therapist is always totally off the mark when making analysis and only spews a lot of crap, that's when you know it's time to find someone else. =)
I think there was something else I wanted to say...but uhh...I'm on a higher dosage of Zoloft now, so my trains of thought are derailing even faster than before. =D
The word verification setting for comments is under your Blog's Settings -> Comments -> "Show word verification for comments" I didn't want to turn mine on at first. I figure it would annoy people...but it's sure as hell better than getting those annoying blog spammers. =-_-=
Both of you two ruined the friendship once you crossed the line between friends and lovers. It takes two to tango and trust me, it dosen't sound like he was fighting it at that time. Its hard to go back to a friendship once that line is crossed. Like I said on the phone, you did your best that you did durring that time. Love is an raw emontion you feel and can't control, but acting on it is anther thing.
Uhh... not really replying to anything per se, just figure might as well log in from this page since I'm here...
Oh... actually I guess there is some news related to this post. I sent Rob a short email saying basically the same thing as this post, with the added bit that I decided that since it just ruins things, I wasn't going to talk to him anymore. I also let him know that if he ever wants to talk, I'm definitely prepared to listen (something I should have said much earlier, so at least I got that out).
I'm pretty sure another email didn't help things, and I'm also pretty sure he misunderstood things in it or was confused by it. Things seem to get worse every time I communicate with him, at least ever since the whole Silvia thing. Hopefully things will at least improve to where I can start renting anime again normally, now that I've decided to stay silent.
Sigh... or maybe I'm just hoping for too much, again...
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