Holiday Apathy

Wow, it's been ages hasn't it? Honestly it's because there's not a whole lot to report - just a lot of apathy here. Aunt's gone for the week, to go and impose on my other aunt, and I'm not cleaning the house up like grandma wants me to, in order to impress my aunt on her return, mainly because I know she won't be impressed at all anyway. Missing Max, whose birthday is tomorrow. Missing Rob and the store, because I've been thinking about Max (since his birthday is tomorrow) and as far as I'm concerned, he died shortly after Max did, plus I'm way behind in my anime viewing and manga reading, and that irks me. Otherwise been sleeping a lot (and getting scoldings and lectures about that), reading, and playing video games. Feeling tired a lot lately, and just totally not getting into the "holiday spirit." Daisuke pees on the bed less these days. It's colder and I wear a sweater to bed and an extra blanket. I find myself staring into space a lot. Crying on and off. Birth control pills aren't working properly as I keep forgetting to take them, and been bleeding a bit for a couple of weeks straight now. Stomach upsets too, and coughing. I don't feel very good at any given time of the day, unless I'm reading a good book or otherwise escaping into something. Daisuke likes to climb on my lap and be hugged, which is cute, but it doesn't do as much as I'd expect it to, to console me.

I don't know. I'm okayish, I guess.